Friends, God, disappointment, and so on

This will be typed in code. The reason why is that I feel like I am mostly complaining. I wanted somewhere to let off some steam, and I feel like I can do that here. Also, I can type in a manner that most people will not be able to understand. And I kind of like that.

But, after typing it...I feel like something came out that I did not plan on or expect. So here is a hint: God = Sap. Here is another hint: 12.

Sap iuxx zaf xqmhq ad rademwq ge. Sap iuxx zaf xqf ge paiz. Rduqzpe iuxx. Rduqzpe tmhq. U wzai U zqqp fa xqmdz ftmf Sap ue ftq Azxk Azq U etagxp pqbqzp az, ngf U wqqb tabuzs U omz ruzp eayqazq ita U omz pqbqzp az ftmf ue zaf Sap. Itk?? U paz'f wzai. Ngf U wzai Tq ue fqmotuzs yq ftmf xqeeaz. U wzai Tq tme fduqp fa etai yq ftmf nqradq. U wzai U tmhq xqmdzqp uf, mf xqmef bmdfumxxk, uz ftq bmef. Mzp kqf tqdq U my msmuz, tgdf rday itmf rqqxe xuwq nquzs uszadqp.

Paqe Sap rqqx ftq emyq imk?

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